Quarantine Through My Eyes
I wasn’t ready for March 13, 2020. I didn’t think it would be my last day of high school. There were many hopes and expectations I had for this year. I wasn't able to enjoy my last laughs and make memories with my friends dancing at prom, going on our senior trip, and walking down the stage together to receive our diplomas. Sometimes I look at myself and think of what could have been. In May, my family would have been rushing out of the house for my brother's college graduation. Then in June, for my own. My grandmother was going to come from Ecuador for my brother’s and my graduation. Due to this pandemic, it was impossible for that to happen.
This pandemic gave us an unexpected 360 degree change in our lives. For some of us, being in quarantine has been a time to connect with our loved ones and appreciate the time we share with them. But for others it’s been a time to stay strong for ourselves because our parents have to work or because we don’t have the same support from our friends or teachers at school. Being in quarantine has put restrictions on our lives and has made us comfortable with acceptance. It has made us grow. I’ve experienced many losses and disappointments. Some days I’ve felt devastated with the pandemic, but other days I try to see the good in things.
My mom has been my support throughout this quarantine. When I feel alone she is there for me. I’ve always viewed my mom as the strong one in our family. Since being in quarantine, I am seeing her vulnerable side more, leading me to be the strong and brave one for her. My mom has lost close family friends, her uncle, and cousin due to COVID-19 in Ecuador. There have been days that she’s felt sad and had no enthusiasm to do anything around the house. On those days, I cook her breakfast and bring it to her bed. My mom has been praying to make herself feel better spiritually and emotionally. She’s always been very religious, but lately, praying is her number one priority. Every morning at 6 AM, she starts off by thanking God, goes on YouTube and looks up the rosary.
“Por la señal de la Santa Cruz...”
She usually waits for everyone to be asleep or busy so she’s not interrupted and locks herself in her room for 45 minutes. Lately, my mom has had the energy to get up and do things she loves, like cooking and making desserts. Seeing my mom do much better these past few days has made me feel good.
During this pandemic, I learned to appreciate the small things that surround me. My backyard has become my holy place. It is where I am able to let all my stressed and sad feelings out. In the sunny and warm afternoons, I try to clear my mind by watching my dog run around the yard appreciating the sun. As much as I would like to enjoy being outside with my friends, I want to keep my family and myself safe and happy by staying home and out of danger. In times like these, many of us lose hope. After experiencing the COVID-19 pandemic, that’s the last thing I’ll ever lose.